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Two Yules by jan-u-wine

1 Yule

1382 S.R.



the Great Hall


by heated laughter….

faces tied tight with

bright smiles,

heads weary from too much ale,

too many helpings of
Cook's fine,
thick mid-winter stew.

It is Cook's gift to my Lord and Lady,

who, on this day

(poised betwixt one year
and the next),
have been granted an heir,

a son.

The mid-wife spoke

all hushed,
in the hall-way
and wrung her hands
(not knowing I could hear):

this bairn must be the only

child of aunt Esme's body.

An only child.

Like me.

But not




not like me at all.

My other uncle,

the one who lives inside a Hill,
has brought me a toy
from a far-off land.

And books.

Many books,

smelling of ink and age,
soft star-letters of words I cannot read
twining their spines.

I rub my thumb over them,

picturing in my mind the worlds which wait within
the circle of their words.

From the edge of my small desk,

where a ray of unexpected Sun drifts,
sudden movement calls me.

Uncle's toy.

Glass, it is, and clear as any crystal water might be,

in shape like the mushrooms that grow down-cellar.

And inside this hollow sphere,

a spire,

like a spear thrust deep into the earth.

And flags upon it…..







They turn,

these flags…..



racing soundless

like the windlass
upon the hill.


do they stop when I hold the glass in my hand,


from the confusing prism of the sun?


Uncle's fingers,

soft and faint ink-stained,
hold mine,

lift my chin so my eyes meet his.

I am not a babe that I should cry so

at the breaking of a toy.

Uncle smiles

and replaces the sun-castle
upon the light-scattered desk.

Like clouds rushing before a wind,

tiny vanes turn.

It is not Magik,

Uncle explains
(though even his words makes it seem thus):

the white flag


the black flag

each love the Sun,

(though not each other)

and when they have each


upon her warmth,

they turn,

and chase each the other,


the little ones of the Hall
playing at Hide and Seek.

I smile into the dimming light:

The whirl of black-and-white,




No matter


Uncle says,

the sun-castle

IS Magik.


Yule 2

1420 S.R.


The hearth-fire was friendly today.

Its little smoke curled soft

and grey within my study

and without,


and feet quiet down the hall.

It is not so much,

not too much,

(is it?)

the light which lies

in bright prisms
over the face of the desk…….

glancing and breaking

over book and parchment,

over ink and quill

like gold, spilling….




running in fractured lines

upon my hands…..


The plain, dark earth of the road

is comforting against my feet….

soft shadows lying beneath

over-reaching trees.

I walk on for some time

before cold rain begins to fall.

Like stars it looks upon the face of the little river….

like stars and the dance of mum's

darting swift in the banked fire-light of an evening….

The chain of grey rock is all but drowned beneath the rain as I cross

the green-grey wash of water
to where my summer fishing spot lies.

If I close my eyes

I can feel the sun hot against my back,
the pull of a fish upon the line,
the quiet dappling light within the water.

Even in the wild midst of storm,

ducks float serene
upon her face,
blue-green-blue heads turning
to mark my intrusion,

orange-webbed feet moving slow against the chill.

Slow drops,

seeming colder, even,
than the fierce snow of Silvertine.,
slide like tears upon my face.

It feels




and clean.

The hood of my cloak lies against my back.

In these lands,

I need not cover my face,

in these lands,

the only foot-prints on the road

will ever be those of
un-booted feet.

The King has said so.


Crystal drops fall with

ice'd abandon from my hair,
my face…..

like the sky's life-blood,

they drip upon the Road.

And the Road runs with this

sweet life,

brown-grey earth washing insistent

about my feet.

I think……

I think

I shall rest here tonight,

here where the stars lie close and sharp

upon the edge of the hill,

here where the rain sings like far-off Elven

voices upon the small quiet of the water.

It is dark now,

so very dark.

I cannot even see my hand

before my eyes.

That is a comfort.

I have brought no tinder-box

to distress the companionable
arms of the circled trees.

Their skins shine,

in the small light of the Sickle.

The smell of home-fires

touches me as I spread my cloak upon
leaf-veined ground.

What lost breath of night-wind

has borne this bit of comfort
such a long way?

Of a sudden, I realize:


have I been entirely alone
upon the Road at night,

never slept unaccompanied

beneath the wide
dark beauty of the sky.

I shall not now.

Upon the vast Sea of night

Eärendil sails,

jeweled prow bright

and steady
upon his course.


shimmering far-off,

wings to the West,

and Soronume,


until World's end
by the soft fire of Telperion….

I watch them until the press of the night

pulls them from me,

washes their song from my ears.

Sweet sleep is pushing upon me.

I close my eyes and dream

of white-crystal stars

and coal-black nights.

I dream of sun-castles.



*** the sun-castles that Frodo is playing with as a child are what we call radiometers: a closed globe of glass, similar to a light-bulb, with vanes of alternating black and white. The sunÙs light, hitting these “opposing” vanes, causes them to turn, “running” in essence, from each other. The vanes turn because the air near the black surface (which absorbs the light) becomes hotter and exerts greater pressure on it than the air near the white surface (the light reflecting on the white surface being mostly reflected away)

~~~Wilwarin is a bright star, whose name means “butterfly”, Soronume, a constellation traced by Varda into the sky with the dews of Telperion. It's name means “eagle of the west”.